tərˌmoil

been having some bad energy in the studio as of late, or at least that what i have chosen to call it. i go in to work and just end up pushing paint around for a couple hours or starting something serious working on it for a bit then painting over it. im having trouble deciding on what to actually paint.. the past interiors i have been doing now feel empty in a way. this came about once i began to really think about if i am that connected to the images, above just an aesthetic level, enough to devote materials and labor into making them paintings. my solution to make a more connected interior painting was to paint an image burned in my head from childhood, an image of my grandmothers fire place(painting seen in a post below). but after working for a period of about two weeks on the piece i was left with something that i do not feel that close to still, the idea is still very important but the real struggle is getting the idea, that is perfect in my head, out; out onto paper out into words out onto canvas..

i really have long since envied those people who can just sit down and just start making something weather it be drawings or paintings. i guess i need to just accept that i don't really work  like that.. i love paint and i never want to distance myself from it but the idea has been creeping closer and closer. this is my outlet.maybe its the holidays, the holidays in another country away from my parents and brother and friends..

tur·moil

ˈtərˌmoil/

noun

1. 1.

   a state of great disturbance, confusion, or uncertainty.

   "the country was in turmoil"

   synonyms:

   confusion, upheaval, turbulence, tumult, disorder, disturbance,agitation,  ferment, unrest, disquiet, trouble, disruption, chaos, mayhem

Condo

studio update

finished untitled as of now

finished untitled as of now

me 3am

above painting no longer exists 

above painting no longer exists 

 most recently close to finished work

painted over below painting 

above painting no longer exists 

the work shown above with the orange checkers had to be destroyed due to cracking in the paint and a low quality stretcher bars. canvas has been recycled and re-stretched on smaller supports.

Mount Etna doin its thang. earth is where its at  

KOH - I - NOOR HARDTMUTH 5340

my new toy,

more info here

So many things are perfect in this documentary.
(subtitles available in english)

went to a great flea market today found a brand new Opinel inox No.6 folding knife for 6€

couldn't pass it up 

check out: opinel

right now

its tuesday 2:46pm here in dusseldorf and im sitting here in my apartment waiting for laundry to finish downstairs(5 flights) and writing emails before i go to the studio and the 1946 Beauty and the Beast(Le Belle et la Bete) is on television. i have never soon this version and its so beautiful.. its raining outside, my window is open, and i can hear cars and trams from the street bellow. just though id share.

MArieJADE - Chut! - Acte Final, Lyon from MArieJADE on Vimeo.